Well I guess being a single mom can't be all that bad!!!! I guess I will get use to it someday!!!

Why must life be so unfair and so unpredictable - I thought I had found the love of my life, I moved in with him, I gave up a lot of different things for him, I have a child with him and yet that ended out as one of the worst picks I've had in a long long time. Due to my stress level at the moment and things that has been bottled up for far to long, I apperantly isn't worth living with!!!! 

I thouhgt if this day ever came that I would be tough, hard and icy and couldn't care less but that is so not the case - I feel betrayed, hurt, lonely and so many other things.

I'm so mad that I've taken dissicions that I don't know if I will regret or not. I've done things many will disapprove of.

I feel like screaming - but I still need to just smile for Alexander!!!!!

So weird for the first time EVER I don't feel older, I think that from now on I will turn 25 every birthday I have.

My baby boy decided to give Maman the best gift ever - he took 5 steps all alone!!! I was crying!!!!! I was SO proud!!!!

But the best birthday ever was also a little downer - one of my sisters FORGOT!!!!!! But she called the day after and appologised!!!!! I hope she doesn't forget Alexanders birthday.

Oh I am so excited about throwing my sons FIRST birthday party!!!! I can't wait!!!!!!!

Holy Merde!!!!

I am SO nervous, I have a job interview tomorrow morning and I am so not prepared, and I can't even prepare more for it so......I hope it goes well. Oh it is a call back so I guess they are a little interested!!!!

Oh I so want this job!!!!!!

Finally my babyboy's illness is on return!!!!

So hopefully we'll all get to sleep the entire night once again!!!

OH MY GOD!!!!

I would really like to have this baby out of me, my belly-skin can't take anymore of the beating it's getting, and I still have 9 weeks left!!!!

I can't pack, I can't walk my dog I can't do anything, plus I can't wait to see my little boy!!!